Sunday, April 17, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
i am here, now.
It's April, and it's still snowing here in SLC. It's not sticking to the ground, but the flakes are giant, and making the outside look more intimidating than it actually is. It was this time last year, that I finally felt whole again. Looking back to it now, it seems impossible that I could have been in a place of such heavy sorrow.
I have this incredible passion for living in the moment. I have never been in this place before. The worry, and the doubt tend to fade away when I am here. There's no sense of knowing what is to come, or no sense of desire for that feeling either. I have begun to wonder if not worrying about the future is my new scapegoat. Does it make me seem irresponsible and flighty to those around me? I don't know, but I do know that I feel more alive than ever. Mending the broken pieces of my mind here and there, filling in the holes where I once doubted everything I did, living in the moments, living...breathing...for the first time, every time.
Here I go, continuing on this path of a twenty-something year old girl, emptying my baggage of the past, to find that a whole new tenacity for the moment.
http://oneeighttwozeros.blogspot.com/2010_04_01_archive.html
I have this incredible passion for living in the moment. I have never been in this place before. The worry, and the doubt tend to fade away when I am here. There's no sense of knowing what is to come, or no sense of desire for that feeling either. I have begun to wonder if not worrying about the future is my new scapegoat. Does it make me seem irresponsible and flighty to those around me? I don't know, but I do know that I feel more alive than ever. Mending the broken pieces of my mind here and there, filling in the holes where I once doubted everything I did, living in the moments, living...breathing...for the first time, every time.
Here I go, continuing on this path of a twenty-something year old girl, emptying my baggage of the past, to find that a whole new tenacity for the moment.
http://oneeighttwozeros.blogspot.com/2010_04_01_archive.html
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