It's funny how our memory works.
Omitting anything bad, and only letting the good things really shine in the light.
Maybe this isn't so bad after all?
Unfortunately, it leads to forgetfulness. It's makes you unclear of how you've made it from point A to point B. In my case, exactly how I ended up here...
Writing this...
thinking about the same damn thing over and over again, playing the memories like a bad movie that I can't stop watching...again...and again.
It makes me wonder...
Maybe all the memories are really good. Did anything short of love really happen between us? Maybe...just maybe it was a good year, and when I look back on this year that I'm currently living...I'll think the same thing.
Sometimes, I think deep inside myself...I can feel each rise and fall of my chest, and I pretend that I can feel you...doing the same thing too.
I get caught up, just wondering.
Wondering where you are? Who you are? What you are doing? Where you might be going? Who you are with?
Wondering, all the time...
(but not really all the time anymore, just sometimes...like this)
What you think of me, if you think of me...if there's even a margin of hope that you could still possibly be one of the strongest lights in my life.
You did LIGHT up my life. I just needed to turn you off, so I could have some time to find my own light.
and I have, it seems that I might just be living my best life.. All the light in my life doesn't stop me...
Doesn't stop me from thinking of you, where ever you are...
